although i have studied and enjoy the art of reading the tarot cards.. i am not a medium.. i am not a psychic or a soothsayer or anything that even begins to profess to be able to tell fortunes or see futures… in fact,, if the truth be told i am more than skeptical of people who say that they can “do” any of those things…
in light of that i submit the following for your consideration…
in 1997, i was sitting in front of my computer at roughly 3am one morning,, as is my custom..and i saw a quick flash,, i can only call a premonition,, for lack of a better word.. i saw a friend of my sisters,, a friend i had never actually met,, (i had met his wife and seen group vacation photos of when they accompanied my sister and her then husband on vacation,, so i knew who the person was..) i saw him in a seedy motel room,, (and believe me when i tell you ,, i know me some seedy motel rooms so there was no question about where he was…) the walls were a robin egg lacquer blue.. he was there with a thin quite visually “askew” black woman,, who,, in the instant it took me to see this premonition, i knew was a crack whore,, (and believe me when i tell you ,,, i know a thing a or two about crack whores…)
anyway.. the over all sense of the few seconds i spent with that premonition was that, the guy, “rob” was dead in a strange motel room and the only person present at the time that he died,, was this “crack whore”…
as soon as the day broke,, i called my mom,, she knew these people first hand,, as not only were they friends of my sisters,, but jehovah’s witnesses as well,, and they attended the same kingdom hall as my parents… i told her what i saw,, and asked about “rob” and his wife…
my mom informed me (which believe me since they were “witnesses” she would rather not have admitted any of the following,, and would never have divulged this information if i had not asked with very good reason) that he had a binge drinking problem,, would disappear sometimes for days at a time,, and spend absurd amounts of money… i informed her,, in my expert opinion,, he was doing drugs,, all that money and all that time equals drugs in my book… anyway.. nothing… until a year later,, “rob” turned up dead in a motel room… no one was with the body when it was found…..
forward to three weeks ago… i did a tarot reading for a girl i work with.. it was a simple three card past-present-future reading as we have a bit of a language barrier,, and to get any further in depth would have been ludicrous… as i did the reading,, i was inordinately drawn to a card that was not in the spread,, it followed in sequence with the the “present” and “future” cards,, and i felt compelled to find and touch the card .. as i did so,, and was immediately overcome with the presence of a death,, and the feeling that it (the death) was the event that would bring an end to the situation that is presently causing her and her immediate family a great deal of emotional upheaval… no specifics.. no nothing… just an innate sense of a death..
then three nights ago.. as soon as i laid my head on the pillow,, i saw the death.. it was her brother,, and i saw his car,, and the date june 20 as clearly as i had seen the message about “rob”…
it was not a dream.. it was not twilight sleep,, it was another premonition… i cannot explain it to you,, but there is a difference…
and now i have no idea what to do with this piece of (mis) information…
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March 5th, 2008 at 5:23 am
paisley,
I knew you were special from the get go!
On the other hand, those eerie premonitions come to receptive persons who for some reason are open to auras that are always around us.
Think of all th WiFi, radio, tv, etc that flows through the ether around us. You are a receiver and your mind is fine tuned from time to time to pick up and recognize particular emminations.
As a young man I was more finely tuned then today. That’s not not to say I don’t get premonitions.
rel
March 5th, 2008 at 7:59 am
Like you, I am a skeptic. I think those “premonitions” come because you are an innately perceptive person. When we understand ourselves and those around us and have a grasp of the human condition it can be easy to “predict” the likely outcomes. This is particularly true for people in dire situations. I don’t say this to lessen your experience…it is still a wonderful gift…it’s just what I believe to be the underlying science behind the magic.
March 5th, 2008 at 9:31 am
This makes me think of the book “Dead Zone” by Steven King.
Not all gifts are easy to live with.
Someone very close to me has a similar gift of having visionary dreams (of the future) and being able to interpret other people’s dreams. I had a recurring nightmare, and when I told him about it, he interpreted it–and then it went away, lost its power over me because I was able to make changes which allowed me to be free of what was troubling me.
I guess where I was going with my little story is I think when you are given a gift like that, you’re also given the wisdom to use it for good. Just have faith in yourself.
March 5th, 2008 at 11:59 am
This is some intense shit!
You are quite amazing, aren’t you…
March 5th, 2008 at 12:13 pm
I don’t know what to say Paisley except I know this could be frightening at a certain level yet it appears that you are becoming a “receptor” of sorts, for lack of a better word. Through your writing I see a person who is very much in touch with herself, others and society….you have a very deep connection to things and people and this is probably why this is happening. You are “open” in so many ways that things come to you naturally, whether you ask for them or not. As to what to do? That’s a question only you can answer. However frightened or uneasy you might be of it, I think it is gift being given to you from the wisdom, love and connection to life you’ve made…..
March 5th, 2008 at 1:52 pm
paisley, I’m like you, I’m skeptical about telling the future. For me, dreams and visions only tell me about my consciousness, and maybe the collective unconscious.
That said, there’s more to consciousness than what I understand. What Rebecca says rings true also. I’m not at all sure how you should proceed with what you felt with the cards.
I’d write a poem about it, probably.
March 5th, 2008 at 2:33 pm
wow… that is so freaky… but somehow I am not surprised. Not at all.
March 5th, 2008 at 3:22 pm
I could sense you had some kind of ability. My grandmother was a psychic. She often had premonitions. It is incredibly difficult to know what to do when you have one, particularly if it is bad news. Most people refuse to listen. Often the premonition is bound by fate anyway, so whatever you do or say will not alter it.
When I was younger I was very sceptical about psychics, ghosts, the tarot. But as I have grown older I have realised that there is a lot more to this world than we are aware of and that we are often too quick to dismiss things. A gift such as yours can be overwhelming but remember that it is only given to the special ones among us, and you are definitely one of the special ones. If you ever want to talk about it, please don’t hesitate to drop me a line. (((Hugs))))
March 5th, 2008 at 5:16 pm
this hasn’t happened to me but has to someone in my family..I am a firm believer…I think it happens many times..sometimes people don’t realize what they just saw and discard it..
March 5th, 2008 at 9:15 pm
My Mum and grandmother always had episodes like this. Must be weird for you.
March 6th, 2008 at 4:20 am
tarot cards intrigue me paisley..so does future.. whats in store for me
March 6th, 2008 at 9:39 am
you need to tell that lady what you know.
March 7th, 2008 at 5:34 am
oh paisley, i broke out in goose bumps..! a friend of mine did tarots, but nothing like this…wow, you are gifted.
March 25th, 2008 at 5:34 am
Hi Paisley! I found your site doing a blog search for tarot…you have a great site! I imagine how upsetting those premonitions could be. As a reader myself, I have no good advice on what to do with the information! This is the tough part of reading…
Ground yourself and ask for guidance and you’ll get it.
Again, love your site!
Nicole
May 7th, 2008 at 12:01 pm
“and now i have no idea what to do with this piece of (mis) information…”
I have no such gifts although I’ve had just enough of a taste and sight of inexplicable things not to doubt you for a moment. Were I to have thisinside info there’d be nothing to be done. That’s someone/something else job.
Lord I’m glad it’s you and not me.
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May 7th, 2008 at 4:45 pm
The gift of knowing is also knowing when to tell.
Not even knowing a head of time will bring peace to the family about his death, unless they are at peace about his soul.
May 7th, 2008 at 7:22 pm
Wow, Jodi! this is intense. How frightening for you to hold this suspected knowledge inside. I’m so with Meleahs comment. You Must contact her and ASK her If she wants to know about a vision you’ve had. If the are ‘believers’ which I hope they are.. Her brother may choose just NOT to get in a car that day. If god forbid he perishes on june 20th, I think you will fall apart. Am I right? If I am.. call her.
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May 9th, 2008 at 4:41 pm
… great post p!!!… premonitions are time-breaking spells seeing into another world i am not so sure i wanna see sometimes…. sorry, not to get off the subject other than i had a lovely experience w/a white mustang fastback in the 60s… at the end of the evening it was not the guy, it was his car…