.......... i have a poem, my chemical romance,, up on almost-dead poets society,, and yet another,, entitled, celluloid ,, up on your stories. your poems.... c'mon over..........

this weeks writers island prompts worked well together for me…. i originally wrote this as a prose piece,, but the line breaks became necessary in order to punctuate it properly when the peice is spoken…

try reading it out loud….

inner_beast_by_tweedsocks

there have been times in this life,,
when i have been inhabited
by a rather ferocious identity…
times i found myself blinded
by selfishness,, or anger,, or drugs,,
or a dangerous cocktail
made up of immeasurable quantities
of all of them….

there have been times
i am willing to admit,,
that you had reason to fear me,,
as i had nothing to lose,,
and you had better hope,,
i did not want what you had…

the problem
with having been that person,,
is even tho i know
i am not her any more,,
i understand now,
that all of us have
that inner beast,,
that animal,,
that will do
what it has to do,,
to survive..

most of us will
never be pushed that far,,,
most of us will
never know what it feels like
to lose all sense of right and wrong,,
to be blinded with addiction,,
desire,, anger,, hatred…
but i assure you,,
no matter who you are,,,
it could,,
and will
happen to you,,
given the right set of circumstances…

so as you experience
people that you don’t understand,,
people who have made
what you judge
to be ill thought out lifestyle choices,,
people that you pride yourself,,
that you are not,,
my suggestion to you would be,
to take a good long look
at that person
that stares back at you from the mirror….

you see,,
i know who the person is that’s staring back at me..
i have seen my inner beast…
i know what she is capable of..
i know what evil
can come to life in a mind
if the right set of circumstance provides itself..

but most of all…
i know,,
i am just like you…
and it could very well be you,,
that has that lesson yet to learn….

photo:

http://tweedsocks.deviantart.com/art/Inner-Beast-20065764

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31 Responses to “inner beast”

  1. #1 JoNo Gravatar says:

    Thought-provoking and well said and, of course, very true.

    Jos last blog post..Miramon

  2. #2 relNo Gravatar says:

    paisley,
    The Yin and Yang of ourselves!
    http://angel-feathers-tickle-me.blogspot.com/2008/04/grateful.html

    rel

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  3. #3 lucyNo Gravatar says:

    ooooh Baby, this was chilling! This was a fantastic, honest poem Jodi, we DO all have an inner beast and NO ONE should judge someone elses actions till they’ve walked in their exact shoes. That you’ve survived taming your inner beast, I think you are triumphantly a more compassionate human being than many who have not yet seen theirs. wait.. I need to re-read this amazingly powerful poem. ♥

    lucys last blog post..Family Lost = Family Found

  4. #4 NoahNo Gravatar says:

    Really good!

    Noahs last blog post..Encapsulated

  5. #5 Just JenNo Gravatar says:

    excellent insight…it could happen to anyone!
    superjen is thinking about writing something for ferocious…grrr….LOL

    Just Jens last blog post..Identity for Writer’s Island

  6. #6 Leigh LearNo Gravatar says:

    this was perfect, as we are all truely capable of the unthinkable. i was surprised by your comment on my latest poems, i didn’t intend for them to be so dark, but i guess sometimes darkness is all that comes out of me.

    Leigh Lears last blog post..I feel like I could collapse….

  7. #7 Beloved Dreamer-MelanieNo Gravatar says:

    Much thanks for noticing my typo.

    I can identify with you and your other self. Within me is a very dark void which I live with daily. I can find no way out, no way to fill this void but try to hide it. Yes this is all there is for me. My only escape is sleep and reading.

    Beloved Dreamer-Melanies last blog post..Spin…..Dried

  8. #8 gautami tripathyNo Gravatar says:

    Under right circumstances…or should it have been wrong circumstances?

    Point(s) to ponder over…

    gautami tripathys last blog post..dog and (wo)man——Writers Island

  9. #9 meleah rebeccahNo Gravatar says:

    “to lose all sense of right and wrong,,
    to be blinded with addiction,,”

    I did …..Im still working on my sense of right and wrong.

    meleah rebeccahs last blog post..Pick A Lane

  10. #10 TammyNo Gravatar says:

    I have met my inner beast and I actually look at people who have sailed through life unscathed with concern. They judge and yet I don’t see them being able to handle anything horrific after years of living in a bubble.

    I can still taste that very same cocktail!

    Excellent!

    Tammys last blog post..Writer’s Island - "Identity"

  11. #11 robert bourneNo Gravatar says:

    that you gives you thought..because as you said there is a piece of that in everyone..circunstances dictate if it comes out..

  12. #12 DBA LehaneNo Gravatar says:

    This really packs a thought-provoking punch!

    Sorry I’ve not been around of late - a few things have kept me from blogging recently!

    DBA Lehanes last blog post..Writer’s Note: 3 May 2008

  13. #13 RobinNo Gravatar says:

    Very true. The best we can hope for is to never have to get that up close and personal with the beast we all carry within.

    Robins last blog post..Finding myself

  14. #14 HollyGLNo Gravatar says:

    I know her well. She has been safely subdued for many, many years, but she remains a part of me all the same.

  15. #15 keith hillmanNo Gravatar says:

    I am only too aware that my ‘beast within’ has made a bid for freedom on far too many occasions. An interesting piece which really had me thinking

    keith hillmans last blog post..ferocious

  16. #16 White RoseNo Gravatar says:

    I think you and I are on the same wavelink. I was just thinking about this a few days ago. And it is a frightening thing, to really examine. I often wonder what kind of “stuff” I am made of. Would I show courage during certain circumstances or would I succumb to the situation. I’d like to think I am made of stronger “stuff”, but you never really know, unless you experience it. btw, I’m going to do a link to your page. :D I’m enjoying your work!

    White Roses last blog post..Fool’s Gold

  17. #17 ratanaongNo Gravatar says:

    Reading your post, puts me on reflective mood. When I was younger, the beast and I are two. Now, when the beast appeared I let it go asap. Well written cause it evoke such thoughts in your reader.

    ratanaongs last blog post..Phil Vassar

  18. #18 chicklegirlNo Gravatar says:

    Bravo! I felt almost like I was watching a film noir while I read this. It deals with so many important themes, but the ones that stand out to me are that we are all more alike than we are different, and the victory of pulling ourselves back from the brink gives us compassion for those still on the edge. This was stark in its condemnation of hypocrisy and yet hopeful–at least the way I read it.

    chicklegirls last blog post..A meme and a poem

  19. #19 Myrtle Beach RamblingsNo Gravatar says:

    Very powerful piece. I am very afraid of you.

    Myrtle Beach Ramblingss last blog post..Sunday Scribblings - Family - 5/04/08

  20. #20 AudNo Gravatar says:

    A ferocious identity? Hmmm… perhaps we all have different identities in different phases of out lives. We act and react differently as time passes by, I guess.

    Auds last blog post..Fierce Love Poems

  21. #21 Mandy de WaalNo Gravatar says:

    A fierce and beautiful truth.

  22. #22 stan skiNo Gravatar says:

    That was powerful - our defences can manifest themselves extremely, no matter how reasonable we believe we are.

    stan skis last blog post..WI Ferocious

  23. #23 CorinaNo Gravatar says:

    This works very well as a poem, although I could see it working as prose, too. There’s so much in this piece. I like the last part. Far too often “they” tell us it’s our problem when it’s really “their’s”! And of course, we don’t realize it until much later.

    BTW, sorry I haven’t been around. I’ve been on the road.

    Corinas last blog post..Angels

  24. #24 AnthonyNorthNo Gravatar says:

    This is so true. We all have it within us. Excellently done.

    AnthonyNorths last blog post..THE ALIEN IN THE BOOK

  25. #25 ramblerNo Gravatar says:

    I really liked the way you ended this, something which we all got to learn, the inner beast does exist in all of us, sooner we see it, sooner we know how to get over it

    ramblers last blog post..Handicapped

  26. #26 sumaNo Gravatar says:

    wow!! that was well done…

    u write too well…and i’m giving up poetry…my inner beast used to be a poet…

    loved every word of this…:)

    sumas last blog post..My daddy strongest…

  27. #27 SelmaNo Gravatar says:

    Oh yes, we all have a dark side. I have been on that side. The ferocity and power that lies in that place is intense, immense. And terrifying. I try to stay in the light as often as I can. Brilliant piece from you as always.

    Selmas last blog post..May Day, May Day.

  28. #28 FennyNo Gravatar says:

    … we’re all capable off the unthinkable given the right circumstances and once the beast is released it’s hard to keep it contained again … very good and offering a lot to refelect upon

    Fennys last blog post..The Woman In The Mirror

  29. #29 GemmaNo Gravatar says:

    Yes! We do all have an inner beast. I met mine when my first husband cheated on me then walked out leaving me with 2 young children. I had no idea I could think the thoughts I did at that time. Quite scarey, looking back, what could have been!

    But it is good to know that beast, I feel. And then you know how to tame it.

    It is denial of the inner beast that is the worst!

    Gemma

    Gemmas last blog post..Happiness is a strange country

  30. #30 totomaiNo Gravatar says:

    oh the inner beast within us. sometimes it unleashes without us knowing. yes, people will always have their own opinion. at the end of the day, its only you who can decide if you are fine with it or not. great post.

    totomais last blog post..Sabong

  31. #31 ShubdNo Gravatar says:

    Very thought provoking Paisley. I agree with Gemma . To accept and recognise the beast is in one’s best interests . Only then one can learn to deal with it when it rear’s its ugly head .

    Shubds last blog post..A Tigress.

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